II Jai SriRam II
I live in Mumbai with my mother-in-law (Ma), Amit (my husband) and our two children. Almost about a month back, I had a very nasty argument with Ma and in a fit of anger, I asked her to leave the house and to go live with my brother-in-law in Bandra. That same evening, my brother-in-law came to pick her up and she went away. This whole incident had really shattered me.
The nagging thought that haunted my mind was, "How will I ever face Dada now?" That argument was constantly playing in my mind, did I do the right thing? Why could I not control my anger, or in the first place could I have just reacted differently? For three full weeks, my mind was very agitated and restless. Whenever I sat to take NAAM, cooked food or taught my kids, these thoughts constantly played in my mind.
On June 11th, Dada had come in my dream and HE gave me the TIKKA on my forehead. When I woke up, I shared the dream with Amit, and I was happy. After almost three weeks of useless thoughts and restless mind, my mind was at peace. The rest of Thursday went by smoothly. On Friday evening, by Dada's blessings, I thought of speaking to Dada and asked if I may call Him. In some time, Dada HIMSELF called me back and I narrated what had happened. I also told HIM that I had seen HIM in my dream the day before and I was feeling settled. In this lifetime, I have known Dada for the past 7-8 years and HE has never scolded me. But that day, HE was terribly upset with me and HE strongly told me that I was completely wrong. And HE never expected that kind of behaviour from me. After being with HIM and trying to follow HIS teachings, it sure was a disgrace on my part. HE told me that SriMaharaj would never ever approve of such behaviour and that I must follow HIS Do's and Don'ts. When I tried to justify to HIM, that it is difficult to handle such a situation, HE told me that Parmartha is difficult but with HIM being on our side, HE makes it possible.
He asked me to go and personally apologize to Ma and request her to come back. That night, I sent a message to Dada requesting forgiveness. On Sunday evening, after Amit came back from work, we both went to Bandra and I apologised to Ma and I told her that it is her house and she is more than welcome to come back whenever she wants. By Dada's Grace, I definitely was feeling better and happy in my heart that I had done what Dada had told me to do though difficult.
The same night, Amit developed a sore throat with fever and cold. When Ma called up on Monday evening, she was almost in tears, I told her that when our Dada is there, we should not worry, all will be good!! Dada encouraged Amit to have the testing done. Amit’s symptoms absolutely indicated that he had the COVID, but Dada had shielded him and to our relief He made the results of COVID came negative. The dream that I saw three days ago before Amit fell sick, was Dada's Protection and Blessings to us as a family.
I, as an ego-centric individual, acted in a wrong manner, but my Dada like a Father scolded me for my betterment and guided me to see and realise what was correct and at the same time like a loving Mother pardoned my wrongdoings & protected Amit and all of us from the deadly disease.
My learning from the experience is that I must be more mindful of my actions; follow the dos and the don'ts along with taking NAAM. As Dada teaches us if we have a cold, the medicines are not going to benefit me if I keep having ice-cream along with it.
I promise myself that I will never ever repeat my mistake.
Kindly accept my Pranams at YOUR beautiful LOTUS FEET.
II Jai SriRam II
23-06-2020 11:27 pm / POSTED BY : Kaberi Singha / Where the Experience took place : Our home, Mumbai
